i’m baaaack! only you can decide if it’s because my brain’s working again or i had a lobotomy…

anyway, i’ve spoken to a few people about it and now i feel moved to ramble write a bit about my journey weekend. (seeing as some of you asked).

but first, an apology: i know a couple of people in london who’ve said “let’s meet up next time you’re down here” and i’ve never taken them up on it because i’m always down there to do health-y stuff. (that means i’m anxious to the point of puking beforehand and light, airy and exhausted beyond belief afterwards). it’s nothing personal, i’m just not in a very sociable ‘place’ when i’m there.

moving on…

now, would you do me a favour and imagine something really jaw-dropping here — and here —? thanks. that’s in lieu of the stuff i can’t tell you about but really wish i could!

okay. so, i got to the hotel in kensington at 7.50 on the saturday morning, ready for 8.15 registration (and i thought i’d be late!). the event started at 9 and not 8.30 as the schedule had promised, so we stood around having tea/coffee/herb tea and meeting new people and all saying how nervous we were.

after a brief introductory chat from debs (brandon bays’s welsh sister-in-law and a head practitioner), we watched some video of brandon explaining about the journey. then we did a meditation, more video, another meditation. before lunch, we were told to partner up with someone we didn’t know and go for lunch with them and chat about our experiences of the journey so far. my partner and i had a little picnic in kensington palace gardens (lovely! and v. hot and sunny, too!) and got on like the proverbial house.

after lunch, we did some more meditation and also this thing where you had to massage the shoulders of the person in front of you. not my favourite thing, but it did loosen us all up.

then we had a live demonstration of the journey, with debs and a practitioner. (there were about 80 ‘delegates’ and 40 practitioners at the event). and then we got the journey scripts and after debs ran through them with us, we went away to work in pairs. my partner went first, so i read the script and s/he went through the journey, which basically involves opening to your emotions and falling through each layer until you reach ’source’, a deep peace, the soul, joy, god, whatever you want to call it. then there’s a healing and forgiveness process. it takes about an hour although my partner was a bit quicker.

after a quick little break, it was my turn, and i was surprised but pleased by the depth of feeling that came up (floods of tears followed by floods of joy).

we did some more stuff as a group after that, but it’s a blur, then i went back to my hotel and collapsed as it really makes you detox!

the next day i was wise and got there with just five minutes to spare. (also it was because i put my earplugs in and overslept). the day followed a similar pattern but this time we did something called the physical journey, which can be used to clear unhealthy cell patterns and facilitate bodily healing. (brandon used this to get rid of her tumour and the principles behind it are scientifically proven by people like candace pert). this was supposed to be the easier process but i was stuck at first and asked one of the trainers for help. suddenly a memory and the feelings behind it hit me like a brick - a relatively small life change that i never knew i’d been so unhappy about, i was amazed, and yet i knew it was completely true. i felt lots of strong emotions again and underwent a wonderful healing/forgiveness process. this was definitely the more powerful ’journey’ for me.

after that, there was a time where people could share their experiences but i wasn’t moved to. the people who did were so joyous and inspiring, it was wonderful. there was even dancing! before we left, we all hugged our partners from both days (spontaneously, it was an order or anything!) and said goodbye to the people we’d chatted to. 

i now really, totally, completely understand -

a. how to let my feelings just rise up without trying to change them, or myself

b. that i am a wonderful expression of grace

and

c. that our emotions have so often created our illnesses and that any illness or emotional wound can heal itself via the journey process.

i know that last one might make some people’s hackles rise a bit, but i won’t argue with you about it unless you’ve tried the journey first! and probably not even then - it’s my new belief system, doesn’t have to be yours.

finally, i feel so inspired by the journey that i’ve signed up to do more of it! i’m seeing a private practitioner for a one-on-one later this month, and going to a one-day ‘advanced skills’ workshop in perth when i’m in oz next year. and! i’m going to the manifest abundance workshop in late november/early december, the only one left this year, and it’s in…

FLORIDA!

the funny thing is that when i read about amber’s holiday, i said out loud ‘i want to go to florida!’ so it’s like the abundance has already started manifesting… it’s a long journey there, of course, but that’s appropriate, no?