get back to where you once belonged
yep, i’m back.
nope, i’m not that happy about it. (you think post-holiday ennui is bad, how do you think it feels after three months?) (not that i was on “holiday” all that time, i worked quite a bit. but it was sunny.)
now i’m exhausted, depressed and have to try and get back into my normal routine, which is so disheartening i can’t even tell you. i also have some stressful stuff to deal with that i literally can’t tell you but which i’m dreading. i want to do nothing more right now than jump straight onto another plane, but my conscience (credit card) won’t allow it.
as usual, i’m totally out of step with life. every other blogger i read is having a fantastic time, creating wonderful new opportunities, loving their life, or some other such fabulousness. i’m pleased for them all, i really am — or i will be once this crying jag wears off – but i do wish i could blog about some of the fabulous things happening for me. but unless you count my low-key excitement at being reunited with the far superior british version of itunes, i haven’t got much to contribute.
so i’m throwing myself into an office makeover project (my “office” being one corner of my bedroom, but still - i’m getting a real desk, and a filing cabinet instead of a pile of boxes!) in the hope that this will keep me busy, and bring in more work and other good things in some magic feng shui/law of attraction-type way.
for now, i feel the same as i do at the start of every new year: that i have too much to take on, that everything feels too hard, and that i’ll never feel motivated or enjoy life again. it is kind of nice to be home — apart from the weather, and the dread — it’s just adjusting to the change that i’m having some (a lot of) trouble with. (i also have raging PMT).
so, yep, i’m back.
and nope, i’m not that happy about it.
July 13, 2008
I have a week left before I go back home :(
July 13, 2008
Welcome back!
First of all you need to book another holiday (even if it’s just a weeny one) so you’ve got something to look forward to.
And then - bearing in mind that the opposite of “ennui” is “offwee” - cloister yourself with a Gilmore Girls (or West Wing or Studio 60 or Brothers and Sisters or…) box set and ease yourself back into reality!
Think of it as re-entry and be gentle. (That sounded smuttier than I meant it to…)
K x
July 13, 2008
How long have you been away, Nico? (Don’t go baaaaaaaack!)
Keris, you read my mind - I’m thinking of treating myself to a box set (or 2!) Gilmore Girls on E4 has been getting me through the mornings (the mornings are the worst…) I just have to save up now for my next break, I guess. (I’d kinda like to turn 30 somewhere cool…) x
July 13, 2008
Lisa’s going to LA for her 30th. I wish I’d done that (and stayed at the Chateau Marmont). I’ll have to make it for my 40th now…
July 13, 2008
I know, I’m very jealous of Lisa! (Reading Piers Morgan’s latest book put me off the Marmont, though…) x
July 13, 2008
I’ve been away since mid-june. No matter how long I travel, I always get the funk when the plane lands back home. I need to find a job here and stay! hehe.
By the way, if you haven’t yet, check out 30 Rock. That’s a show that keeps me pretty distracted :)
July 14, 2008
Welcome back :)I’ve felt like crying (and have sometimes done it) ever since I got back from Florida last month, so I can’t even imagine how I’d feel about coming back after a trip as long as yours. The new office sounds like a good idea, though, to give you that “fresh start” feeling…
July 16, 2008
Thanks Amber :)
Ugh, coming back from Florida is the worst, I know! Can we just get rich and move away, do you think? x